I am now halfway through radiation :-)

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     I am so very happy that I have now made it halfway through radiation but it does come with alot of other concerns right now. The side effects are starting to take place now and I can tell that I will be starting to lose my hair very shortly. It comes out a little now with just a little tug but my head is just so sensitive and when I touch my hair it just seems to hurt to the roots. I am also still having the wonderful headaches. They did start me up on the steroids to help with the swelling and to take the headaches away but the steroids make me feel so much worse phyically. I have been trying to figure out over the last week how little of these I could take and still feel somewhat normal without the headaches but not a lot of luck with this so far. Tomorrow I will just have to suck it up and take the steroids like I was told… who ever said these Dr’s knew best? My body just kind of aches now and I look forward to the end of this radiation but I do know that I have some other things going on that has me very concerned.
   When I was told 2 weeks ago that we would be doing whole brain radiation they told me that they didn’t want me to be taking my chemo pills as this would make my radiation side effects so much worse. I spoke with my oncologist about this and he agreed that I needed to stop taking them while I was going through this treatment. So I have not been taking these pills for the past 2 and a half weeks. I have now started to have the cough come back and my lungs feel very heavy again. I have a hard time breathing and really it feels like I am having an asthma attack. I decided that it was best if I called my Dr today as it really scares me to think that I have only been off of these pills a short while and could the cancer start growing this quickly? When I talked to him he said that more then likely if it had started to grow again that it was doing it while I was still taking the pills and not just in a 2 week period. So tomorrow I go in for a lung x-ray to find out if there is any change. I already know the answer to this question and am just trying to prepare myself for what will be said. I would so LOVE for my body to work with me a little bit here but I also know that not everything is always in my hands. I need to just keep my faith and know that everything will end up working out just how it should. Besides I also have LOTS of fight left in ME!